A S M R
(set: $bathroomClean to 0)
You started with [[hairbrushing->brush hair]] videos on Youtube. You spent a year falling asleep to the sounds of Romanian women telling you how pretty your long hair is.
Then you read an article about how much money some of these women get from their recordings of barely intelligible whispering.
It was a no brainer.
[[You became an A.S.M.R. girl->Start]]
(set: $food to 0)You hair **is** beautiful, and so is the rest of you, but that doesn't matter, you're just a [[voice->voice]] right now.
[[back->Title]] Your sit down at the desk in your small, cramped studio apartment. You have a dying succulent by the windowsill, and a dreamcatcher above your bed.
Opening the analytics for your video, you see your first video got 1439 views in the first day.
Not bad, but you know you can do better.
[[Make New Video->VideoTwo]]
(if: $suggestionVideoTwo is 1)[[[Make Video Using Creepy Suggestion->VideoTwoSuggestion]]]
It takes a few recordings to make peace with how much you hate your voice and your delivery, but [[practice makes perfect->Start]].
Minecraft69420 says "Hot."
[[Back->Start]] (set: $suggestionVideoTwo to 1)
anonymous says "You should show more of your body. You're sexy. You'll get more views."
[[Back->Start]] You record a video that's more of the same, except this time you work on your verbal delivery.
[[Go to the Kitchen->KitchenVidTwo]]
[[Go outside->OutsideVidTwo]]You record a video of yourself whispering random words in to your microphone, just like last time except you're wearing a black corset and thong underwear while doing it.
(set: $videoTwoRaunchy = 1)
[[Go to the Kitchen->KitchenVidTwo]]
[[Go outside->OutsideVidTwo]]You have some old grapes in the fridge. Ketchup and mustard next to some bread heels don't seem very appetizing.
You look in the cupboard and grab a handful of stale almonds.
[[Go to the desk->DeskVidTwo]]You get as far as putting on your shoes before the overwhelming red cloud of anxiety washes over you. Outside feels like a bad idea, for now.
[[Go to the desk->DeskVidTwo]]
[[Go to the kitchen->KitchenVidTwo]] (if: $videoTwoRaunchy is 1)[You check your analytics...13854 views!]
(else:)[You check your analytics...937 views...]
[[Go to kitchen->KitchenVidThree]]
[[Go to sleep->Sleep]]
[[Go to bathroom->Bathroom]]Mostly guys asking for your phone number. There is one standout, however. A gentlemen.
He sent you an online voucher to order food from one of several restaurants.
[[Thank the anonymous benefactor->ThankYouOne]]
[[Ignore the email->IgnoreTheFoodOne]]You're getting a new message every minute the video's been live. Mostly positive.
"Your cell rings...it's your [[mother->mother]]
[[Go to Desk->DeskVidTwo]]
[[Go To Sleep->Sleep]]
[[Go Outside->OutsideVidThree]] (if: $food is 1)[You go to sleep with a full stomach.]
(else:)[You have a hard time sleeping because of hunger.]You don't get along, and for good reason. Everytime you talk, she imparts her judgement without love.
You sometimes read narcissistic parent forums, and feel kinship with the posters there.
[[Back->CheckCommentsVideoTwo]]She tells you everything you're doing, or have done wrong. You tell her you have to go.
[[Check Messages->CheckMessagesVideoTwo]] You press the red button without any guilt at all.
[[Check Messages->CheckMessagesVideoTwo]]You have bathroom sprays scattered along the counter, and several empty shampoo bottles at the bottom of the tub. The toilet could use a cleaning.
Your medicine cabinet is closed, just like it has been for the last two weeks you've been stuck indoors.
[[Open medicine cabinet->MedicineCabinet]]
(if: $bathroomClean is 0)[[[Clean toilet->Clean toilet]]]
[[Back->DeskVidTwo]]On the shelves are leftover pills from past diagnoses, in addition to medication for your current diagnosis.
[[Take anxiolytic->TakeAnxiolytic]]You put on rubber gloves and start scrubbing...
15 minutes later your toilet looks clean enough to eat off of...ew.
(set: $bathroomClean to 1)
[[Back->Bathroom]]You pop half a 100mg tablet into your mouth, and start preparing to sleep.
You try to make one last video before bed but your speech isshh slllurreeddth.
[[Go to bed->Sleep]]You reluctantly take the SSRI. You feel horrible taking it because it destroys your life, you feel. You've been off it for a month now, and you're doing fine, right?
[[Go to bed->Sleep]] (set: $food to 1)
You thank the benefactor, and order as much thai food as you can afford with the voucher.
After eating, your eyelids feel heavy.
[[Go to sleep->Sleep]] You don't feel right taking a stranger's money.
Your eyelids are heavy. You haven't slept in two days.
[[Try to sleep->Sleep]]